Thirty something

Oh..so...sore.exhausted.stressed.

work is still beyond insane, i can't even begin to catch my breath.
then there is the after-school coming back next week..and the dojo...and training.

needless to say my plate is full.

trying to remain focused, trying not to just give up. reminding myself that this will someday be worth it.

just over a month now til the fight. hoping to see i'm match up soon just so i can breathe a little easier. 

its the final stretch.

in other news, i should be having lunch with a good friend of mine. they are moving away soon. times like these i wonder why i get close to people, it hurts a little when they go away. guess it means i care.

sorry if this post is scattered, my brain feels scrambled.

Ava (the bike) and other updates

Oh MY poor little Ava.  She went in cause she's been acting up. Hoping it was a simple thing, actually was major.  The poor thing needed SO many parts to make her work right.

Last time we went to dbags so we went to Bikes Not Bombs.  So far, I love them and they are awesome.
Its going to set me back a big chunk, but I guess its what I have to do to upkeep my bike.

And my body. Since she hasn't worked right, she's bothered my knees.  Top it off with all the training and probably overworking my IT band and I am hurting a bit.

Anyway she's resting comfortably and in good hands. I can't wait to see her again in a week.  

This week might suck monkey, much like the past two.
The past two weeks I've been helping another team, and my own work piling up.
This week its going to be very busy with two deadlines of my own.

AND training.

Tomorrow, I go get groceries. Stockpile up for the week ahead. Got to get in my protein.

Monday I have off, and going to do strength training, cardio, and sit in the sauna at his work.

Also got LOTS of school stuff to do and prepare for. 

6 weeks left. VERY VERY VERY nervous right now. I wanted to be further along with so many things and freaking out.  On the other had there are areas that I've improved, and I'm happy about that.

Just go to be focused.

Training...and Training

So I've been doing LOTS of training.  Lots of rounds, ramping it up.  It looks like I might have a match up coming down the pipe. It's really happening.

46 days. Holy crap.

This week I found out a fellow student can't make it anymore due to work. Bummer, especially since I was going to ask her to be my second for cornering.  It's ok though.

I've gotten really close to fellow partner, and fighter. He's so young, and he's really working hard. Hope they find him a match too. When we first were talking about fighting I said he's kinda like a brother...and boy its sure shaping up to feel that way.

Two things I started this week, heaver gloves and eating protein snacks every hour. Oy I actually feel full most of the time. So far so good. Almost at my goal weight. (few pounds away)

Work has been really busy. So busy I've made mistakes. It really bums me out when I do such things.  One particular project, working with a new PM, they don't know my work ethic or how rare it is for me to mess up. Its just disheartening.

Trying to let it go as its almost 11 at night and I need to get sleep.

Tomorrow is another day.

Its in the Mail

Just filled out the check to register to fight. It will be in the mail tomorrow.
Lots of potential fighters I'm seeing now with a big range.  Trying not to over think it.

Still training while working long days, body is tired. Last night did 5 hard rounds before class...oof!
Mind is tired.

Only 52 days left. I can NOT think of anything else I want more.

Focus Focus

Less than 8

Time is FLYING.  Hope I am doing enough. Working hard but also trying to rest...

Had a good week of working hard and trying to get stronger. We had new people in class on thurs and I am hoping they sign up.  That would be so great.

There is so much on my list to do, and  though I am wading though the fires, never seem to get it all done.

I also can't stop thinking about training this goal.  Its almost consuming me at times.  

Preparing myself for a busy week. Helping out another team on their deadline, and dead set on not missing any training.  My own projects are in a lull and I'm hoping they stay that way at least for this week so I can be as much help as possible for the other team.

61 Days

So another person has commented they had a girl in my weight class that was interested in fighting.  They are... a NINJA.  

Did a fairly good workout Saturday, and tried to work hard given the soreness.  Most of it is gone, but still sore.  Tried to keep finding things that my body needs, and its been helping.

Emailed 'the doc' for a tune up.  Waiting to set up the first one, then probably will visit again just before the fight.

There is a lot of personal stuff flying around, leaving me both entirely emotional and emotionless.  Just got to keep focused on this goal no matter what.

All of this...for 6 minutes.

Rollercoaster

Rollercoaster of emotions as we approach T-9 weeks.  Last night the promoter was asking his people if they know if matchups for Max and I. Some dude said he might have a girl quotes as "tuff cheerleader".  As per my habits, I was googling them lightning fast.  Nothing is definite yet, but word is spreading people are talking.  

Training went ok last night, just went in and did my work. Nothing too crazy.  For some reason I am not yet fully recovered...trying to eat and drink different things to see what my body needs.

At the end of the day, I think its sleep and less stress.  Gee who would have thought?