After the fight, the first question was 'did you win?" followed by "can i see it?". even worse was "can't wait to see it". Then it was the 'are you going to do it again?"
I know people don't mean anything by it. Feel like my go to response is "let me try to process what I just did for a moment"
At first I felt like I wanted to walk away from it all. Then I went back to classes and even hit mitts.
Now what?
It feels like a little pressure to answer that.
I could fight again, I can teach, I can study for my exams, I can...
Its all a blessing for sure that I have choices.
Right now, it just kind of feels like purgatory.
Feel like a quitter no matter what I choose.
I've asked for pics/video from the fight. I think I'm about ready to just see it so I can put it to bed.
You are most certainly not a quitter. It's smart to step back and think about your options. No matter what you choose, I know you'll be following your path. Love you.
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