Forgiveness

Though there are SO many things I want to write about...but feel called to write on this.

Just before Thailand I new change was coming...during Thailand I felt it more so...and now after time has passed, I am still trying to understand what changes are happening and what to do about them.

So. Forgiveness.

My first thought is I wonder how many people tie it to religion.  But it's not about that...I think those that have faith and those that don't, accept an apology or forgive.

Lately I have been grappling with forgiveness.  Its always hard to forgive myself...and think it may be a life long effort for that.  But I've also been doing soul searching on forgiving another. 

The person is Mark. It's been so hard for me to come to this.  For years I've held on. Seeing my mom and how sick she is, I wonder how much of it is due to what happened. Seeing the rest of my family and the impact..its all been hard.

He has been gone for a year.  It time to let go.  It is time to forgive. So I found a prayer that I think says it all well...


"Father God, I need your help and your insights. Today I have gained a better understanding of forgiving others and with your help, I fully forgive from my heart. Just as you have freely forgiven me, I forgive them. Father, I ask you to forgive me for hurting others out of my own hurt and to heal my relationships with others. I pray all of this in Jesus' precious name and by whom all forgiveness and healing was made possible. Thank you for loving me in ways I'll never comprehend. In Jesus' name, Amen."